18 Nov In-Between
I’m standing in that space in-between opening a door and stepping through it. In-between being ready and not quite. A week in-between decisions and changes.
Two of my children moved out of the house last week. It’s good. As a matter of fact, it’s great! But still, I am left with a Very Quiet House. Hours & hours of me at home. Not a peep. Not a squeak. Just silence.
I’ve been adjusting by trying to absorb the silence. Not fill it up. I’ve spent the whole week listening to the sound of no noise. The best word I can find is garnering. I am garnering the silence. Gathering it in. I feel like a great void that all the noiselessness is falling into. It’s the most bizarre thing I’ve experienced in a long time. I seem to be hungry for the silence. Like I am slurping it down. And when the day comes that I am full of all the quiet, I will write. For now, I wait, and listen.
Since two of the children have moved out, I have three EMPTY rooms. I mean. Empty. The old, filthy carpet had to go. But I wasn’t sure I wanted to fork out the money to have it professionally cleaned. My son said, “Let’s look underneath it, Mom.” And we did. Only to find hardwood flooring! Oak!
So I spent much of the week, tearing out carpet, cutting up carpet, and pulling up nail board borders, and next up? Stripping the wood floors. I enjoy doing hand projects so this is perfect as I transition to the quiet.
When the floors are done, I will move my writing space from the dark basement up and into the light. Two windows! Sunshine! The new room will be white and lime green. Fresh and springy. Just the place for the coming winter days.
The old Sony Vaio is biting the dust. Hence a whole lot of research and looking. I’m hoping to know what I want before Black Friday/Cyber Monday sales and score a win. It’s not my favorite thing to do. I love tech. But find it frustrating to research and decide. Just too many options and numbers and stats. I’m looking at an HP Spectre 360.
BETWEEN BLOG FOCUSES
And lastly, I am considering a new focus for this blog. My book has been out for one year. And I’ve been through the publication process. So what’s next?? I’ve talked to several people who have helped me sort it out. (Thank you, Ingrid and Leslie!) I’ve been writing about Zambia and book publication. Now I’m writing about the Netherlands and WWII.
What holds this blog together?
And the brilliant answer my friends gave me: “You do.”
“Excuse me?” I asked confused.
“You hold the blog together.”
“So the blog will continue to be about writing and my publication steps. But it will broaden to include the Netherlands?” I ask them.
LIGHT BULB MOMENT
“More than that. Your blog is about culture. Think about it. Zambia. The Netherlands. Indonesia. And your next book. On top of that, you’re living in Fargo which is its own culture! And you work in jail. That is a culture and a language all its own, too,” they reply. I’ll be moving my blog thematically towards living in-between cultures.
NEW BLOG LOOK
Which means: new banners. New look. And a whole lot of research on how to make the blog load faster and work more efficiently.
That’s where my life is at right now. Between. Between having children at home and not. Between an old computer and a new one. Between fall and winter. Between silence and writing. And working towards a new theme: Between Cultures.
I’ve been living in-between all of this. And today it’s raining. And the rain is pattering and life is good. And I think I’ll go and go scrape down some hardwood flooring. And while I do, I’ll think about the people who built this house in 1960, and put down flooring, and covered it up with carpet, and how surprised they’d be to see that once what was old is now retro and new. And while I scrape, I’ll garner up the silence. And get ready for what is ahead.